Missed Connection

So, I look at missed connections today, while at work... dont ask why i'm working on a Sunday... but i come across this ad.

Bill for First Lady-m4m-21 (Freddie's Beach Bar)

Saw you last night at Freddie's, and thought you were really hot. You had a shaved head, a red "Bill for First Lady" (HILLarious!) t-shirt and blue shorts. I was sitting down and wearing a white hat. You were with two guys (friends?). Two shy to give you my phone number. Never seen you at Freddie's before. Hope you see this, buy you a drink next time?

That was me... someone finally posted a missed connection about me!!!! I am soo excited by this. And I think I may actually know who the guy was... but we'll see after I respond to him.

:)

Social Spring Cleaning

The last few days I've dedicated myself to social spring cleaning. Going through my online profiles (i.e facebook, myspace, friendster) and removing people i dont know, people who aren't real, bands, etc etc... and of course to cut two or three boys who play a few too many mind games that I was tired of. So on all the sites I listed that i was social spring cleaning, which got one of the guys to start IMing me (don't worry, I plan to cut him n July). But interestingly enough, a half dozen people I havent talked to in months all emailed me to make sure they weren't being cut.

Fascinating.

Well Deserved Break

So tomorrow starts my vacation. I am taking two days off in DC. THen going to Gay Days. Hopefully that will rejuvenate me. As I looked at my vacation days, I realized I'm getting royally screwed this year. I still have 10 vaca days and 2 sick days. Normally, we can roll a couple over for the rest of the summer, but if I plan to vacate the job, rolling over doesn't help because I won't be paid for those. I have to find someway to take off half of june... hmmmmm

withdrawal

So I realize why I haven't been posting much lately. When I get depressed, I withdraw into myself and try to avoid most contact with the outside world. For instance, I didn't go to any bars this past weekend, instead opting for some personal time with myself and watching television.

I haven't posted on here because I don't want to have to analyze how my life is going because it only upsets me further to have to consider how my life is not the way I want it going. Granted, its not as bad as it was 2 months ago, but its not where I want it to be.

I also have had this increasing desire to date a guy lately rather than the meaningless sex I am used to getting. Don't get me wrong, I love meaningless sex. For a while I couldn't figure out why then my friend Christopher figured it out for me. As other areas of my life are out of whack and unstable, I look to relationships to try and stable my life. Unfortunately, I haven't had much luck. And it just shows the instability of that aspect of my life all the more.

Hopefully very soon, all of this will begin to right itself and I will have a lot more stability in my life. Will keep you all updated