Bringing Sexy Back

First of all. I've had my first picture in MetroWeekly. That's very exciting for me.

The waiter flirtation is still going on well. I saw him last Thursday and he was all smiley to see me. Which made me feel warm and fuzzy. Finally my friends and i were able to move over and sit in his section. To which he'd touch me on the shoulder or back every time he'd walk by. After all my friends left, he sat down and we talked a little bit. He makes me act stupid silly (which is a good thing) in how I flirt with him. I finally left to go home. As I did so, I texted him "As always, you are incredible." To which he responded: "U too babe. I'm so glad we've gotten close." I'm going to FLorida this week, but when I get back if things are still developing well I guess I'll need to ask him out at some point.

But onto other boys... as when it rains it pours. Boy 1. Taking the Metro out to Alexandria for dinner on Friday. And this military guy (air force to be specific) came on and we kept making eyes at each other. When I was getting off the train I looked at him and said hey and he smiled and said hey back. That will become a missed connection. Boy 2. As Coobysnacks was driving us to the restaurant I noticed a guy checking me out from the sidewalk. Boy 3. I was at the COntainer Store (which is like an adult toy store... that and Kinkos may be my favorite stores ever). This guy and I kept smiling at each other (We're talking 30 minutes at least.) He finally makes his purchases and leaves the store. I set my stuff down and follow him out with my phone number and I'm like "You forgot this." and gave it to him... Sometimes you just have to be a little agressive i guess. WHile none of these may develop its nice for people to find me attractive enough to check me out. I'm usually so oblivious that I don't realize it is happening.

moodiness

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been kind of moody for the past week and rather than pass it on to everyone else and incessantly talk about myself (isn't that the purpose of the blog?) I am getting out of that mood after having a good time out last night and mayhaps a little too much alcohol. There may have been developments with my long term waiter crush too. THat story goes as such: I was in class and got a text from him telling me that he was out at JR's and I should come join. Fortuitously, it was a Monday night, so of course I was going to be there. Well, I had a little bit too much to drink (really? you don't say). ANd this is where things get a bit fuzzy. Something triggered a talk between the waiter and I where I think I hinted (and when I said hinted I mean i said everything but let's get married and have lots of babies)that I had a raging crush on him and he hinted back that he was crushing on me.... I remember leaving the bar on cloud 9, but then I sobered up and thought OMG what did I do?!?!?!?!? THe problem is I dont remember what was said and so I don't know if i misread that entire conversation. My plan: pretend it never happened.

yet again...

I've failed in my mission to have three dates with the same guy. I am now to two dates with the same guy though and that is a start. On Friday I went out with the guy I met at JR's on our second date. We had dinner (a very datelike activity), he offered to pay, but I insisted (in retrospect I should've let him) and then we went to Floriana (a very low scale, low key bar underneath a restaurant). Then we hit JRs. THe night went really well, or so i thought. It still had a very date like feel. It still had flirtation. Then he mentioned he got a text from some "friends" (quotations are my own addition) at Cobalt and a minute later he said he was ready to head home. I told him I'd walk him and he busted into the "let's be friends" speech. SO I don't know if he really was feeling that way or he had some ass at Cobalt to get to. Either way I got the talk. Then the next morning, as I'm hungover and angry (an emotion I usually don't have when it comes to guys rejecting me) he calls but i miss his call. I call him back like two minutes later (before his phone message) and he gives me the "I wanted to make sure you're ok after the awkward moment from last night" speech. Fine fine fine. At this point I'm thinking I'll act like i will with all the others who just want to be friends (which is go out a couple times and gradually put more and more time in between each contact until there is none). And how unfair is it to put someone through this conversation. They are the victim, they're the ones getting hurt/rejected. And you put them in the situation of saying "yeah, i'm fine. Yeah friends would be great." except all they think is "god shut up and go away." and "I have to say yes to friendship or i look bitter and petty." Then after i talk to him i get his voice mail which says things like "I'm a great guy...(apparently not great enough), we have a lot in common (apparently not enough)" blah blah blah. So in a total of 10 hours i get the lets be friends talk three times. I'm not happy about it at all.

Then of course i was bitchy all weekend and slept a bit... feeling better now, but not sure how much i want the friendship... i guess we'll just see what happens with it. However, I decided to use this as an opportunity for growth and feedback. So i sent an exit interview to him asking him what my strengths were, what my weaknesses were, what could've been improved. I know its awkward and technical, but I can't keep trying this dating thing and not know why it fails to ever work out. So I'm sure I'll post the results when I get them.

I came on two buses and a train

Two evenings ago I had my cultural event for the month. I went to the Kennedy Center for Carnival. The excitement about it is that the first acting thing I ever did was Carnival. I had a great time in that show and I continued acting for the remainder of high school. The show was ok. I did enjoy their acrobats, but the characters seemed very miscast and their abilities were only so so. Their blocking was much better than in my high school production: no semi circles were used and people moved around alot.

On a separate note: I am pleased to announce that two of my friends were just listed on IMDB (Internet Movie DataBase). They are in the same 6 minute feature, which was produced out of UCF, but their names are now in IMDB. I applaud them and are very proud. So if you get a chance look up Jamie Cline and Deena Patsourakas.

homeless people with money

What is it about DC's unique homeless population that they have money. Case in point, yesterday at the gym.... my gym (as I've learned through other people complaining) has a tendancy to let homeless people come in and use the showers and equipment and such. Not sure how I feel about it since I have to pay a lot of money to use the showers and equipment and I figure I should get a good deal as well. So yesterday after my workout, this guy who is clearly homeless (or at least needs to learn to smell better and groom himself) was walking through the locker rooms with a video camera. Two questions hit me: 1. Where the hell did this guy get the money for a video camera? all of his possessions are in a trash bag that he carries around. and 2. Why does no one seem to care that he's filming them in the locker room in various stages of undress?

But this also led me to another homeless person story that occured over my second year here. I used to pass this woman every day I worked at Barnes and Nobles. Over the course of time we became friendly and I used to make her sandwiches and bring her extra food. THen that year at Thanksgiving, I see her at my grocery store shopping and I'll be damned if her cart wasn't bigger than mine and she was talking on a cell phone... A CELL PHONE... At that point, I couldnt afford a cell phone. WTF??!?!?! Needless to say I stopped making her sandwiches.