an interview and a promise

My promise is that tomorrow I will blog about my date with the bachelor auction guy. It happened and wasn't horrible, but I am waiting to see a few things and how to organize my thoughts on it.

So a less interesting story instead. Last Wednesday, I had a phone interview with the Advisory committee for Student Financial Assistance. It seems like an exciting possibility... research, financial aid issues, etc etc.. right up my alley. And I do think that there is something to be said when I can make the determination on my own that I had a not so good interview. But i had a phone interview with three people from their office and it went alright... not incredible, not horrendous, but I'd be surprised if I made it to the next round. The problem comes down to it being a completely different position than I am used to. I am familiar with how to interview for a financial aid job, but not a research job. And I know I answered many questions incorrectly and had to backpedal... questions like do you like working alone, or with other people more.... i answered with other people thinking this was the question about working on a team with a small, close-knit office... no it was the research is a solitary pursuit question... oh well. Not the worst thing to ever happen... Still keeping an eye out.

bachelor auction

The DC gay swim team had a bachelor auction this past Saturday at JR's. At first, my friends and I started to bid just to jump up the values of the bachelors. But then I got into a bidding war with a guy and I wasn't about to lose out. So I bought a bachelor for a relatively expensive amount, in comparison for what some of them went to. But when a girl gets determined, a girl gets determined. So I bought this guy who was 34, but kind of looks older (which makes me think he's lying about his age), but still hot. He has salt and pepper hair, nice build, looks great in a speedo. Pierced nipple and tattoo on his shoulder. We discussed the possibility of going out this upcoming weekend, so we shall see.... more to come.

Update: In response to the questions I have receieved thus far. I bid $220.00, but it came with a hefty gift certificate to a fancy restaurant. Well part of me was interested in buying a bachelor just under the theory of its something everyone should do once. Him versus the other guys, he was willing to be more open to the people on there. SOme of the guys had bad attitudes and some of the guys were completely uncomfortable, but he was neither. He was very H-O-T and got into the whole selling himself.

Sometimes I feel...

like I am the other woman. This has been going on for some time with a few of my friends, but yesterday while talking to Ruthie at work, I was able to verbalize it in a proper way. I have a number of friends, all of whom are in a relationships, who I have these intimate moments with. Not that we kiss, or make out, or have sex type of intimate moments. BUt stolen moments of attention where I feel guilty as if I've opened my inner soul to them. Now I'm not necessarily saying that I want these intimate moments to end, as they are one of the good things that make me feel like I'm actually alive. But, I think its an interesting aspect that I feel guilty after these.

RIP: Kurt Vonnegut

It seems that Kurt VOnnegut would have a lot to say on how I learned of his death. I got an email from Borders books with a current sale as a way to remember one of the greatest authors of the twentieth century. I am sure he would have railed at the meaningless consumerism of our lives and the quickest to point out and mourn him was not the ACLU or the liberal who he truly gave a backbone to, but to the capitalists who control our society who always want to make a quick buck.

But then, he would also have said something about the first person to mention it to me. As I was reeling from it, and I am a little shocked it has affected me in such a way, I looked for someone who would understand and would mourn with me as well. BUt when I checked my blog as I think it is important to write something right away to commemorate a great man and a great thinker and it was my oldest and dearest friend Rhiannon. And I think of the quote, and he had many, that may make the most sense when it comes to who we become friends with. Vonnegut said (in the Sirens of Titan): "The purpose of human life, no matter who is controlling it, is to love whoever is around to be loved."

It is this mantra that stayed with me through all of his books and in one summer's span, I did read all of his books. And I am better for his way of life that has pushed me to love whoever is there to be loved.

Thank you Kurt, for all you've had to say along the way. You will be missed. And I will say that I am a little worried without you to point out the obvious that the excrement will hit the fan.

the good points

In moving on from an interest or a relationship, as a counselor once told me, its important to remember there were good things or times with the other individual. After a conversation with a dear friend last night, I started thinking of them and thought it would be good to post as i think of them. .

I enjoy stolen moments. When the other person doesn't really have time to see you, but they take a minute here and there to make sure they talk to you, make you know that you are appreciated, and make you feel special. THen they are off again to do what they need to do.

Fox Day

Its Fox Day! An annual celebration of Rollins College where the college President cancels classes as a surprise to create community. Students go to theme parks and the beach and return to the campus that evening and enjoy a cookout with entertainment. How I wish I was still there for that celebration.

am back

Sorry for the lack of posts. I went to a conference down in ORlando. It was really busy and then I came back and was really busy.

The only real update is that my interest in waiter boy is over... but I don't really want to discuss it. Will keep you updated on any other life developments.